Trust

So, I'm holding my breath until W leaves. It's been since Thanksgiving that we've had a break.

When he came back that time, and said he really didn't want to think about going back to DC again, I accomodated and made it feel like this is the way it is.

But by now, I'm fried. My new job, which will be good when it settles in, and my medical stuff, which could be much worse, and Billy Joel, are all weighing very heavy on my mind.

But I can't express to SJ how much I need the respite, because I can't trust him not to make it Will's problem. That lack of trust is critical. There are so many things I don't say. Probably I need to get help again to learn how to make that communication work. Next step. Makes me feel better to write this out.

And to participate in a film which outlines all his dark fantasies isn't easy. I'm glad I told him that.

Hall

Some folks at Hall haven't changed much.

29 or so were invited, we heard from 3 or 4 that they couldn't make it. Left both phone number and email address for RSVP. We assumed 25 or so would come.

Nine count 'em NINE people showed up besides me and Mary. It was very nice, but disappointing.

Good food, enjoyed those who did come, Mary made it easy. But I know she was disappointed.

On Saturday, I received 10 skeins of Noro from AM! Can't decide what I'll do with it, so I went on and cast on the Hanami stole. I'm halfway through the second repeat of the basket weave. Beaded cast on was a pain, but pretty.

I've been listening to Lisa Scottilini's Lady Killer - Next will be the next Eliz. Peters

Work tomorrow! Yikes!

Turner's day

I started today visiting Turner and his parents and his grandparents. He wasn't much more than an hour old when I got to rub his head. What a privilege!

Then I spent some time taking care of myself by seeing a doc for the first time since I moved here, (Lucky I hadn't needed to before this)..

Then I got the call that confirmed that I'll start work on Monday Feb 2. 20 hours a week at the Clinton State Govt Project at CALS. It's not a professional position, but I can't commit to such a thing yet.... so it's all good - comes with health insurance and a retirement plan (they don't add to it for part timers, but I'll probably join just to set something aside..)

About to finish LR ML's socks - then I get to work on the Hanami for Marilyn...

Tomorrow micro Hall reunion. Hope this can be my journal...

Oh my I have a blog!

Figured out I had been boring specific folks about stuff, now I can bore everyone! How exciting!